Reflections on Exodus 19

bring to mind, o lord, your deliverance
and the great compassion you've had on me.
in my distress you gave peace
in my darkness your light shone
in my loneliness, your arms embraced me
in my despair, you have always been 
my sure salvation.

you've delivered me from my foes
and borne me on eagles' wings
into a fair and fertile land
you've ordained me as a priest,
a divine bridgebuilder, 
peacebringer,
lightbearer.

you come in a thick cloud,
showing your might and glory,
revealed yourself clearer than i've ever seen,
standing on a sky-blue glass platform,
and i took in your goodness
like food and drink.

with the trickster's children, i proclaim:
all that the lord has spoken, i will do!
and i'm really, truly, 99% sure i mean it.

deliver me o lord from the fear 
of being blinded by your glory
of being deafened by your thundervoice,
of being utterly consumed in your presence
deliver me from forgetfulness
apathy
boredom
fear of the unknown future

i know who delivered me 

from egypt's slavery
let not 40 days 

and 40 nights
of hungry silence
drive me to a false
but culturally relevant
lover.

keep me close, o lord, 
to the covenant.
immerse me daily
in its holy
furious
consuming
blood.